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Originally Posted by JT I have issues and those issues can spill over on to the check-out girl at the grocery as easily as my husband.
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thanks for sharing that, its amazed me how i can focus my internal issues on outside people, places and things. those that i am powerless over. including faulty blenders, slow queues, people who are rushing past, people who walk in front of me, people who arent the exact replica and who arent under my control. how i'd 'spill over' and then attack them verbally or worse (or most likely just get a very stong urge to attack). its only by working my program (for me i do 3-4 meetings a week, read literature, cut my excuses, pray and meditate a lot! and forgive myself wheni slip up)
as for relationships, i used to be terrified of getting into a relationship with a unhealthy person. how could i not, i only had sick and unhealthy examples of 'love' as a child so how would i be attracted to the unfamiliar, uncomfortable, doubt filled situation that is a 'healthy' person? was i not doomed to fall continously for sickos?
well for me i focus on ME. if i want to be attracted to healthy people I have to be healthy MYSELF. Positive minds attract. as i grow in my program and in my life, the type of people i want to surround me changes. yes ive dropped many people but ive gained new ones. I have to- one day at a time, hand it over to my higher power, trust that he knows what hes doing, trust that i have the ability to respect and love myself to not settle for less and trust that god will help me with it all. :shysmile:
trust higher power, ONe DAY AT A TIMe, sometimes a second at a time. i am willing able and i can.
