It will get better, just keep doing the footwork!!!!!
Might I suggest looking around for rehab centers or detox centers which ususally need RN's on all shifts.
Your 14 months clean will be an ASSET and will help getting a job at someplace like that, and will go a long way toward not only lifting the probation, but being of service to others and yourself.
Hang in there it does get better.
Congrats on your 14 months!!!!! That is quite an accomplishment!!!!!
Love and (((((to all))))),