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this sounds just like my ex-alcoholic. I feel for you b/c I know how loving he can pretend to be. These people at good at getting us hooked on them and sometimes it ends up destroying us (all the while, we are thinking that we can save them - But we can't!).
mine even would tell that he is a sociopath, that he didn't really feel emotions. And I would have believed him b/c he was very conviencing about not feeling emotions and treated women very badly, but when he was drunk he became human again. He even broke down sobing in tears one night when I was talking to him about the son he has who he never gets to see.
So is he a sociopath or isn't he? I don't know. All I know is that he TREATED ME LIKE HE WAS ONE!!!
Getting away from him nearly killed me b/c I truely though i loved him more than the world or even myself. I nearly took my own life b/c he had broken my heart so devestatingly.
but no man is worth any of that.
i am a different person now. I got into alanon and then started going into treatment myself. TO FIX ME. i don't want to be co-dependent anymore and I am doing everything in my power to stay away from this destructive person who was once the love of my life and the only man for me. I'm 28 and he's the only man I've ever said that I would have married him and had a child with him if he would ask.
well, he wanted a kid with me, but he didn't love me and didn't' want to marry me and I refused to have a child with someone who doesn't love me enough to stay faithful and want to marry me.
anyway, that's my soap box. maybe something here helps. I dunno.
Lov and Hugs,
Jenna
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