I'm sorry you're feeling so low today.
I used to wish for that person to come to my door and help me too. Noone ever did.
It was a very alcoholic way to feel.
Sit on my couch and wait for the world to come to me.
I don't believe it works that way 2 much.
Self pity is a killer.
I've been there.
We need to work for change. It's not bestowed upon us.
Get yourself out of the hole - start making sober connections and your life will change.,
Not overnight - but it will happen - I guarantee it.
I'm not trying to slap you around.
I just see clearly that my addiction was trying to isolate me with equal doses of pride and self pity.
you could make it to a meeting and start making connections that way?
Tell people you need help. They will respond.
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