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icecream pete · 02-02-2005, 05:02 AM

forgive me if I ramble:

I guess part of my problem is that I like things to be instant. I expected to just quit and move on ( as I did with tobacco). I met a guy at the last meeting I went to who has not had a drink for 30 years, but he still goes to meetings. I know that you enlightened guys will say " you see, it works", but it scared me to death that I will never be "free" and that alcohol will always be a part of my life even if I stop.

I have not made an attempt to work the programme and I do have a difficulty with my sponsor.

I understand that its my problem and nobody else can make it happen but me. When I went to AA I did not drink so there is a start, as for my HP, I am going to have to relax and let that evolve I think. I like to be in control ( or think I am) so letting go is not easy but we will see.

I know that I have to commit to sobriety and that must involve changes in my life, continuing to drink is not an acceptable option. So I will go back to AA on Monday and try to move forward.

Thanks for the support and butt kicking.

Pete

02-02-2005, 05:02 AM	#12 (permalink)
icecream pete Member Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: England Posts: 108	forgive me if I ramble: I guess part of my problem is that I like things to be instant. I expected to just quit and move on ( as I did with tobacco). I met a guy at the last meeting I went to who has not had a drink for 30 years, but he still goes to meetings. I know that you enlightened guys will say " you see, it works", but it scared me to death that I will never be "free" and that alcohol will always be a part of my life even if I stop. I have not made an attempt to work the programme and I do have a difficulty with my sponsor. I understand that its my problem and nobody else can make it happen but me. When I went to AA I did not drink so there is a start, as for my HP, I am going to have to relax and let that evolve I think. I like to be in control ( or think I am) so letting go is not easy but we will see. I know that I have to commit to sobriety and that must involve changes in my life, continuing to drink is not an acceptable option. So I will go back to AA on Monday and try to move forward. Thanks for the support and butt kicking. Pete __________________ Its not getting what you want, its wanting what youve got.