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Originally Posted by icecream pete

Hi,
I was gonna have a whine about stuff, AA not working, bad choice of sponsor etc etc etc, but the truth is I cant seem to stop drinking. It is so engrained in what I am and what I do, no matter how I rationalise it or look at the sheer stupidity of it, I just go and do it again and again and again.

Each day I start anew, enough, no more only to stumble at the first hurdle. I want to be normal, but clearly not enough. I am like two people, me and the boozer and the boozer always wins no matter how I try.

I am so tired of this constant battle, one sided tho it is.

I know that I cant win, I just want to stop drinking, for good.but wanting it is not enough it seems.

I really could use some help

Pete

You're absolutely right Pete. Wanting it isn't enough. You have to do something about it. The reason AA isn't working and the sponsor sucks is because you want to drink more than you want to do what you're supposed to do to stay sober. Simple as that. It is and will be a constant battle until and unless you GIVE UP!! Surrender the fight. Stay out of the ring. Don't put on the gloves. You get your butt kicked every time just like I did. It just didn't occur to me to stay the hell out of the ring. I kept thinking if I could just duck and dodge one more time, I'd learn how to fight. Never did. I hung up the gloves before booze really kicked my butt. Punch drunk and a wet brain are synonymous.