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icecream pete · 02-01-2005, 03:39 PM

Hi,
I was gonna have a whine about stuff, AA not working, bad choice of sponsor etc etc etc, but the truth is I cant seem to stop drinking. It is so engrained in what I am and what I do, no matter how I rationalise it or look at the sheer stupidity of it, I just go and do it again and again and again.

Each day I start anew, enough, no more only to stumble at the first hurdle. I want to be normal, but clearly not enough. I am like two people, me and the boozer and the boozer always wins no matter how I try.

I am so tired of this constant battle, one sided tho it is.

I know that I cant win, I just want to stop drinking, for good.but wanting it is not enough it seems.

I really could use some help

Pete

02-01-2005, 03:39 PM	#1 (permalink)
icecream pete Member Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: England Posts: 108	Its me again Hi, I was gonna have a whine about stuff, AA not working, bad choice of sponsor etc etc etc, but the truth is I cant seem to stop drinking. It is so engrained in what I am and what I do, no matter how I rationalise it or look at the sheer stupidity of it, I just go and do it again and again and again. Each day I start anew, enough, no more only to stumble at the first hurdle. I want to be normal, but clearly not enough. I am like two people, me and the boozer and the boozer always wins no matter how I try. I am so tired of this constant battle, one sided tho it is. I know that I cant win, I just want to stop drinking, for good.but wanting it is not enough it seems. I really could use some help Pete __________________ Its not getting what you want, its wanting what youve got.