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runningfree · 01-26-2005, 05:52 PM

I have been away for some time for many reasons. I view, but do not post and I try not to even go in. Part of the reason is that I feel that rehashing a story over and over again is somewhat unproductive and the folks responding (although always kind) seem to say the same thing. (I need to accept myself and like myself better) I am aware of this and I feel that I have been pretty rational about it. I do have some major skeletons in my closet that have been unleashed that I thought were buried for good. This has not helped my mental health and ability to function on a day to day basis.\

My husband has been very supportive by trying to get help for himself in order to be able to understand me better. He is not able to be emotionally available, but I feel he has tried and for this I am grateful and I am holding do resentment for his inability to address my issues daily. He is so wonderful in so many ways that I need to accept this part of him. If he needed me to go on a roller coaster I just couldn't do it and he just can't be an emotional listener.

I have the same dilemma that I have had with my friend/neighbor that has been going on for 2 + years. The only difference now is that she has admitted to all the things that I was trying to prove to save my sanity. The plain truth is that I know she has gone through her own issues and she is a good person and a good friend, but she just hurt me deeply with some words and actions. Having her live next door and our children as best friends and myself who is now friendship-scared feels very lonely.

I feel I have made strides, but I am still feeling "depressed". Although I do not have suicidal thoughts, I still get very low and then scared because I need to "be better."

I guess having 4 snow days and 30+ inches of snow on the ground would make anyone depressed. I HATE SNOW! I wish that we had moved years ago. We will be in school until July at this rate!

Thanks for the moment to vent for a bit!

01-26-2005, 05:52 PM	#1 (permalink)
runningfree Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Pooh Corner, USA Posts: 116	Restless and snowbound I have been away for some time for many reasons. I view, but do not post and I try not to even go in. Part of the reason is that I feel that rehashing a story over and over again is somewhat unproductive and the folks responding (although always kind) seem to say the same thing. (I need to accept myself and like myself better) I am aware of this and I feel that I have been pretty rational about it. I do have some major skeletons in my closet that have been unleashed that I thought were buried for good. This has not helped my mental health and ability to function on a day to day basis.\ My husband has been very supportive by trying to get help for himself in order to be able to understand me better. He is not able to be emotionally available, but I feel he has tried and for this I am grateful and I am holding do resentment for his inability to address my issues daily. He is so wonderful in so many ways that I need to accept this part of him. If he needed me to go on a roller coaster I just couldn't do it and he just can't be an emotional listener. I have the same dilemma that I have had with my friend/neighbor that has been going on for 2 + years. The only difference now is that she has admitted to all the things that I was trying to prove to save my sanity. The plain truth is that I know she has gone through her own issues and she is a good person and a good friend, but she just hurt me deeply with some words and actions. Having her live next door and our children as best friends and myself who is now friendship-scared feels very lonely. I feel I have made strides, but I am still feeling "depressed". Although I do not have suicidal thoughts, I still get very low and then scared because I need to "be better." I guess having 4 snow days and 30+ inches of snow on the ground would make anyone depressed. I HATE SNOW! I wish that we had moved years ago. We will be in school until July at this rate! Thanks for the moment to vent for a bit!