[retribution]

Now I fall to my knees, begging for relief
Lost amidst the years of despair and grief
Feeling corroded from sins of the past
Sure that my role in hell has been cast

Wandering through life running from God
Always wearing the strong girl facade
Walking the overgrown path through the thorns
Embracing the false prophet, poked by his horns

Tempted by desires, weak to their call
Each time I give in, even further I fall
Feeding the evil need to self appease
All the while crying with silent pleas

Struggling with self to find the right way
Yet giving in to addiction day after day
Pleading within to find healing salvation
Yet enamored with wanting false sensation

Screaming silently, appealing to Him
To help me find clean waters to swim
All at once the answer came clear to me
Dancing in the snow I was made to see

Surrounded by His glorious artistic beauties
Watching His creatures perform their duties
Realization dawned upon me, I was wrong
God had been trying to guide me all along

Every perfect branch upon each tree
The sun shinning brightly to let me see
Magnified and gilded each drop of dew
A sign from God is each dawn’s debut

My quest and endless seeking now end
No more retribution must I spend
Never need to go on another endeavor
His presence in my heart, resides forever