Originally Posted by
Signal30 
Hello All,
Years ago I was very active on this site and I wanted to stop in and say hello. I am still sober and have been for the last 7 years. It hasn't been quality sobriety but managed to stay physically sober.
I made the mistake of not going to meetings for 4 of the 7 years of sobriety. I dropped all contact with my sponsor, sponsee, and stopped going to meetings. I thought at the time that "I was good, I can take it from here."
I became a dry drunk. A life plagued with fears and resentments. My wife and I are getting a divorce and life has been tough. To be honest I think us splitting up would of happened regardless.
The good news is, is that I have been back into AA since July of this year. I got my sponsor again and although life lately has been the most stressful ever, AA has helped me survive each day as it comes.
While I don't like to hear of someone having difficulty, my heart is sooooo warmed whenever I hear someone get really honest. Too often I hear BB quoting and glorious stories of how wonderful everyone's life is at the meeting......which used to leave me sitting there wondering why I was the only one still having problems. Even now, it's sometimes tough to talk about what's REALLY going on because I want ppl to look up to me or respect me. Oddly enough, the more honest I get, the more respect I seem to get. I wonder what everyone was thinking when I was bs-ing about everything? lol.
I'd love to link to your post the next time the thread pops up.....and I'm sure it will.....when someone asks what a "dry drunk" is and the inevitable replies come back that it's a derogatory term, it doesn't really exist because not drinking is sober, and it's only used by mean AA sponsors to belittle their sponsees.
Glad you made it back and I look forward to reading about your new/current application of the steps/program and the results.
