Good advice all. I've found myself praying lately, even if I'm not really sure what I'm praying to. This is a long way from where I was even when I had 4 months sobriety. After the last relapse I just started talking to a higher power, saying I surrender. I went to catholic school for 12 years which turned me off from religion and this is the first time I've done anything like praying in a long time. I think it's a good sign, I feel more a "part" of the program now.