[MarkSichelCSW]

You're being very dangerous to yourself, your new cocktail and binge drinking is really scary and potentially lethal. Please get real time help ASAP. You need to go to AA and you need to go back to your psychiatrist and tell him or her what's going on. You're out of control and you're an addict who really can't drink or play around with drugs as you keep upping the stakes to a very dangerous level.