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Old 01-18-2005, 10:54 AM   #6 (permalink)
bikewench
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He never shuts a door he does not open a window - even if the window leads to a path we would not have chosen.
This isn't about the other person.

This is about me.

My control. My neediness. My abandonment issues.

sigh....

I can feel my anger building. Flashes of rage creep in.

Does he know? No
Does he care? No.. cause he doesn't know.
Is it wasted energy? Yes.. because I am cycling now and can feel the pressure building to make a move....

So.. what will I do instead?
I will read here... and write...
I will go eat something.
I will be thankful that I am warm and safe and out of the freezing rain.
I will trust in God's will for him and I.
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