Yeah I totally get what you're saying! One minute you're super committed to being sober and the next you look over and you have a drink in your hand! Its frustrating. But I wish you good luck (: just go to meetings, talk to a counselor and you'll be doing great. Also what helps me is I think about the worst time I've ever had using and then I remember how much I dont want to be like that again. I have faith that you'll do great! And hopefully your husband will see how awesome sobriety is and he will follow in your footsteps! Again, I wish you the best of luck (: