Kassy I don't know what the whole picture is like for you under your present circomstances, but from what you have described, you had held a secret from your spouce, and family. They are problebly in shock, disbelif, and deeply hurt!!!! And they have every right to be angry, they're in pain, give them space to heal, you hurt their feelings by lying to them. And you can't expect for them not to be hurt, how they decide in the future to either accept you, or deny you is entirely up to them. Furthermore I dont know what kind of life you have lived, as to wether you've ever been without before, but Im here to remind you, that I have been without, and if you have a car to sleep in thank your lucky stars. Humility is one of those things you can't take a course on at the local collage, its something you learn, like what your going thruogh now, know in your heart that it is good. When one gets high, it dosn't matter on what, you begin a process of problem solving by medication, when you quit, one main obstical is how to problem solve the imediate conflicts that arise without self medication. If you can't find a decent NA meeting look into AA, you need structer and support right now, your sobriety depends on it!~!!!!! You may also need to search for some reasorses that can benifit you, like a shelter, employment agency, ect. check the phone book, call churches, or the salvation army., youve gota take care of you!!!!!! One Day At A Time!!!!!!!!!!
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