[Cassy]

I almost wish I hadn`t stopped using. Everything would be normal right now. I would be warm at home with Gary in my beautiful house instead of freezing my ass off sleeping in my car. Maybe I`ll get arrested for parking here so I can get some food and a damn bed! My family hates me and I hate them for not caring about me. They don`t care if I`m dead or alive. I bet they wish I was dead, I really do. The meeting tonight was a joke. You could smell pot in the parking lot. The people at the meeting seemed to get off just talking about their addiction, like a contact high. They said they would help me find a place to stay until I got a job, bullshit! Just talk, all talk. No help, no doctor like they said, just frigging talk. Talk is cheap, just empty promises and hot air. It`s dark and I`m glad it`s dark. When the sun comes up tomorrow nothing will be any better, just another crappy day. Every day is a crappy day. Ever watch water going down the drain, how it spins as it goes down the drain? It just spins faster and faster, then it`s gone. Gary wishes I was gone, like the water going down the drain.