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We can make a choice to find the joy in every situation.
If your feelings don't change with a serious effort of working the steps of recovery... could find hidden feelings of shame, guilt, or lack of forgiveness for self with a good working of the steps. Once the cobwebbs are gone, life may be seen clearer.
If feelings continue... may want to talk with a Dr about depression.
Still though...
We can make a choice to see the joy and fill our lives with that joy or we can have pity parties all the time.