Hello All, and Happy New Year.
Does anyone have any ideas or theory on just why I don't want to be around happy people? Sounds silly. I feel awful about this.
I'm going into eight months of recovery. I am a grateful person. I am a caring person. I appreciate people, and have never in my life been jealous of anyone or mean to a single soul on purpose.
I have a few younger friends who just got engaged. I adore them all. I am super thrilled for them......yet I don't want to "see the ring" or rejoice with them or do a jig. This is NOT like me. I'm usually the first person to run, and celebrate, and hug, and kiss. I just don't feel like it.
My family have actually said I am mean, and rude, and they just don't know what is wrong with me. Hey, I'd like to know. I plan on enjoying these events with my friends.....I just don't feel it right now.
Please anyone.....fill me in. Thank you from a rude person.
