hot baths do relax me. the problem is where i live the water doesn't get hot enough to just knock me out. it's more really really warm lol.
anyway i'm going to tought this out as bad as i hate it. it's costing me a lot of money and stress but it's some type of problem with how i am eating or living or working or something. pills aren't the answer and i don't want them to be, i just am getting really stressed about this.
it stresses me out that no one else i now has this issue this deep into recovery. everyone is fine. i am in drug court with people you have to pry out of bed to get to go to work and i am begging my higher power for the biltiy to work and i can't. today i am just stuck in bed lol a female friend i saw today and she asked me was i okay i look and feel like a zombie. i'm just going to rest today and try again tomorrow
when i don't work and i go to sleep natural i am always okay the next day but i should not be able to only work every other day that's not fair