it is going to be hard for you to keep saying no and to let go and to walk away toward your own freedom...but you need to keep putting one foot in front of the other, one step at a time. this is something I have discovered here at SR...we codependents get so hurt and angry and upset that the one we love can't give up the drug...but we have a hard time giving up our addiction...them!
it might help you to see yourself from this perspective...it helped me
and now I am crack free for a year and half...crack free because I finally let go of someone who couldn't seem to let go of crack
it is NOT something I want in my life.
it's a hard choice, but it is your choice to make the line in the sand, and hold true to your own boundary...especially for your children's sake.
fight your addiction
give up the crack!