Originally Posted by
SnowedUnder 
Tried to get clean/sober on wenesday, had huge crippling panic attacks. Tried to ride them out with meds it helped a bit. found an old bottle at the back of a drawerI was cleaning out to occupy time and drank. It felt so much better i could go out and leave the house. got more drink and got high. now I've lost spent half my pay check, cant afford to live for the month anyway now so wondering what's the point?
Inspiration?
Well you have to get a little willpower going on for yourself. No one can make this sobriety thing happen for you, but you. Maybe you havent gotten to the point where you want it bad enough, but I think you will eventually. The best thing you can do from any relapse is to learn from it and try again, but change up your strategy. Good luck!