Hi All
Id like to introduce myself, My friends call me Dee and for 2 years now my life has been hell. 2 years ago i had a happy home, a loving husband (so i thought) a great daughter and no addictions what so ever. I used to think "how do people get addicted to things ie alcohol, drugs?"
Then the bombshell came, my husband was married to another woman as well as me and had a whole other life i knew nothing about. I truly though i would die from a broken heart, but then i found alcohol
. At first it was just a few glasses of wine a night, to take the edge off the pain, then a bottle. Soon a bottle wasnt enough so id buy 2 just in case. Then 2 wasnt enough because what if i ran out, so along comes the 4 litre cask of wine (much cheapers also).
I though it was ok because i never drank b4 6pm!!
Then i couldnt remember things id done, id wake up at 4am sprawled on the lounge drink spilt all over the floor.
Each morning id wake up and say "not tonight" but found an excuse to drink anyway. I stopped going out with friends, because if i went out i had to drive then i couldnt drink.
a week ago i did something im to ashamed to even say
the next day i rang my local hospital and made an appointment with a Drug and alcohol counsellor. Next week i am booked into a medical de -tox unit for a 14 day stay, then have booked into a womens group once a week.
Im really scared but also releaved to finally be doing something about it. Im nervous as hell about going into de tox and have no idea what to expect. I am hoping now i have foind this site i will have 24hr home support as well. Just reading all of your posts has given me strenght.
Anyway thanks for giving me the opportunity to vent my fears.
Dee :xmasv