[junem]

Recently I experienced my first documented hypomanic event so now I am considered bipolarII instead of just major depression. I feel ambivalent about this because both my mother and uncle were manic depressives back in the day when they were poorly medically managed. Therefore I do not have a pretty picture in my mind of the illness. On the other hand I am relieved because I think this is finally my true diagnosis and we can now get on with the bussiness of getting me well enough so that I can return to normal functioning and get back to work etc.. I am in the midst of reading everything I can get my hands on in reguards to my diagnosis of Complex PTSD, alcoholism and bipolarism. It has been 4 years since I crashed and burned and it has been nothing but an arduous uphill battle from there but thankfully I think I have gained some ground. Patience is a must in this endeavour and being gentle with my fallible self is paramount. Thanks for listening and letting me vent. Sometimes it all just seems a little too much.