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My Guardian Angel
By: Barbara C. Floyd

I lay on my bed one day,
Awaiting an ambulance you see!
And there, I had a vision of an angel,
Who’d been watching over me.

She was very tired and out of breath;
She was bruised and battered
From shielding me from death.

I hadn’t known I had one,
But this vision was quite plain.
She’d taken many blows for me,
Trying to keep me sane.

I began to feel so bad about all I’d put her through,
I had an apology to make,
And some changing I must do.

For all these years she was there, taking the blows for me.
Yet, I didn’t even care,
I was busy destroying myself and whoever else was there.

I had taken her Holy body through many a rough terrain.
Dragging her beauty down and driving her insane.

I took her golden halo and wrapped it around my arm,
Using it as a tunicate to do my body harm.

I used her lovely wings to slap her in the face,
Every time I tried and failed to run this crazy race.

The drugs I used had damaged her heart,
So that mine could beat.
Yet again, I would self destruct,
This battle, alone, was too hard to defeat.

Her arms must look like pin cushions,
With holes all around,
How did she keep going,
When I continuously pulled her down?

I’ve damaged her lungs as poison filled the air,
One more batch is all, then I’ll quit, I swear.
I damaged her eyes with impurity, as she watched each step I took.
Her feet are surely tired and in fear she’s often shook.

All around me in latter years, my friends began to die.
The drugs were finally winning as we said our last good byes.

But now, it was me, laying here near death,
Awaiting an ambulance to come help me get my breath.

That day changed my life forever, I hope.
I no longer turn to drugs, just to help me cope.

It truly broke my heart, to see her broken and torn,
Seeing all her battle scars from shielding me from harm.

Seeing her look so old and frail,
all because of me,
Just because I lived my life, so selfishly.

I awoke from that vision and plead for God’s mercy and grace.
I fell upon my knees and then upon my face.

His loving arms surrounded me
And pulled me to my feet.
He said “my child look around you,
THIS YOU WILL DEFEAT”

“I will get the glory, for all whom you bring in,
And you can help so many
to turn their back on sin.

I will be your leader and you’ll walk in armored steel.
Letting go of your old life,
And laying down your own self will.

I am your loving father, and I want what’s best for you.
Quit trying to do this on your own,
I am here for you”.

My eyes quickly filled with tears
And my heart began to ache.
As His arms stretched forth, His hand
I began to take.

It’s been 6 months now and I saw that angel again.
She seems a bit more rested and less heavy from my sin.
Her beauty is restored and her wings are just like new.
Her halo is in place and she’s much happier too.
I know she is,
Because I saw her smile,
As I took the hand of Jesus
And began to walk with Him a while.