S-Rod
Hi, you're doing so well...please follow the link Eddie sent and hook up with an NA meeting...few people do manage to do it on their own...please use the help that's available. You're young with your whole life ahead of you...deal with this now. The support you get from a meeting will get you back on track.
Of course you're depressed! It's a really hard time for you and you're still getting used to being sober...meetings help! I would strongly suggest go along...if you are new to it., phone them up they will more than likely send someone to pick you up, go along meet the amazing people there and have a good cry!! every day is going to get better.
And yes, it's totally normal to be freaked out by the malls and everyone with this mad glint in their eyes being rude and awful! Christmas can do some terrible things to people!!! Your sobriety is probably the best gift you can give anyone, so try not to stress out about pressies?
Keep us posted and the best of luck...use the help available.
Much love
cathy