My situation regarding AA is similar to yours in most aspects of your experience. I met some very good people there, read the BB, but rejected AA and its concept of addiction. It isn't a fit for me in any material aspect despite my strong faith and spiritual nature.
You can do as I did, and find a different way to frame your journey, and arrive at a place of peace and contentment in sobriety. Believe in yourself and your abilities, in your worth, and in your future.
Best to you.