[lonlion]

Hi Stefanie; I too have had problems with jealousy in the past. When I was smoking pot, my thoughts would race and I would have what the doctors called "obsessive thinking". Which in turn made me want even more pot or alcohol. I thought if I got stoned or drunk it would calm my thoughts.
However, it is such a vicous cycle to get into. I couldn't even concentrate when I was at work or any where, because I was constantly wondering what he was doing and with who.
In my case I didn't trust my gut instincts which turned out to be true. I kept battling the knowledge of his character and evidence with what I wanted to believe. I tried to numb my gut instincts by getting drunk or stoned. Now I can stay clean because I finally stood up for myself and what I knew was truth but couldn't deal with at the time. I can stay clean now that I have broke off that relationship. I live in fear of being in another relationship, only because I don't ever want to ignore the truth again and go back out and use.
If you think you have a serious jealousy problem without any true valid reasons for feeling that way, then maybe you should talk with a doctor.

Hope this helps honey, I definately understand where you are coming from.
Love Diana