Originally Posted by
LexieCat 
What was the plan you made with your doctor? Presumably that factored in the possibility of seizures. Or were you not honest with the doctor about how much you are drinking? If that's the case, I suggest you call him or her and clear up that information. Medical advice is only as good as the information available to the doctor. Believe me, doctors are not shocked to hear someone "underestimated" the quantity of alcohol consumed.
The fact that you had that little "buzzy" feeling at your usual drinking time isn't a sign you are going to have a seizure. Our bodies get very attuned to when it is time for a drink. I used to get those kinds of feelings, in fact, WAY before I was physically addicted to the point where I had significant withdrawal symptoms.
Thank you so much for the responses, particularly this one. I've always been a worry wart (actually hypochondriac with anxiety issues which I believe is why I self medicate in the first place, but that's a story for another time...), so I guess I always overreact to anything abnormal with my body. It is REALLY comforting to know that that "buzzed" feeling is somewhat normal to the newly recovering alcoholic.
And you got me to a T with the fact that I didn't tell him everything. I mean it when I say NOBODY knows the extent of my addiction. I guess I need to tell him the whole truth. Part of the plan is meeting with him monthly to check in, but I think a month is too long to wait, so I will definitely call him.
Thank you so much, though that doesn't change the fact that I am still terrified. I just wish I could live like a normal person, you know?