I love what you wrote HD3 because one of the promises in the Big Book that i love is, I will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. I think when one accepts their past and present then one knows peace, if only for a moment or so.
I used to wish I could have a do-over, but every single experience got me to where I am today. Oh sure there are days when I am totally ungrateful and wish I was living in a mansion, or lived like some of these silly reality shows, but for the most part I am finally okay with being me.
Early in my addiction I was homeless and I slept in the subway stations. In the mornings I would sometimes wake up and see all the women nicely dressed, hair looking so pretty and they were on their way to work. When I was alone at times I would cry over that and wish I could trade lives with them.
Most days I am just fine being Judy M.
Have a great day and as always thanks for your service.
