Yuck Clancy. What a feeling of violation. The situation is such a lousy set-up for lots of emotions to come up. At least I know it would be for me. Feeling helpless against authority. Feeling betrayed. Feeling trapped. Feeling no matter how hard I try in the present, my past will haunt me, ie. feeling I'll never be good enough.
What I've been trying to do (baby step by baby step) is recognize the feelings that come up in situations beyond my control, draw a thread back to when those feelings first started and were their strongest and first began the pattern, honour them, love myself through them (seeing the sense in them being there given my life experiences) and then try and release to a sense of defenselessness. (Every so often I refer back to Deepak Chopra's 'Law of Least Effort...you can read it at
http://www.innerself.com/Behavior_Mo...ion/effort.htm).
I hope it all works out on the money front.
best,
GF