Freedom
for years insanity ruled the day
acting the fool was always me
I couldn’t just enjoy the play
the star I had to be
life on the edge was all I knew
I loved the thrill of the chase
opportunities I always blew
and blamed it on my race
I overdosed and almost died
shot twice while on the run
my dad got sick and mom she cried
their son lived by the gun
arrested, convicted and sent to jail
all part of the game to us
no more would family pay my bail
they said it was too much fuss
I met someone who said he prayed
five times a day to God
I listened to him and I stayed
and gave the truth a nod
I learned about the original man
and how he came to be
I knew I had to have a plan
to save MY life for ME
I read all day and half the night
I finally overstood
on how I came to have this plight
and cause damage to my ‘hood
I had no knowledge of who I was
deaf, dumb and blind to the light
I did what a fool always does
said that everything wrong was right
I had lost myself to a deadly disease
addiction had ruined my life
this monster inside I tried to please
all I got was trouble and strife
total submission was the only way
to reconnect my soul
so I bowed my head everyday
to learn a different role
when I got out I went back home
back to my mother’s door
no longer did I have to roam
from the west to the eastern shore
I let her know I was different now
she said, “I’ll have to see
I heard you say you’ve changed somehow
but you need proof for me”
right then and there I knew she was right
I couldn’t just talk the talk
I had to muster all my might
and learn to walk the walk
so now I do one day at a time
trust I had to earn
nobody gave me one thin dime
real life I had to learn
so I bumped my head and asked for the power
to do what I had to do
I worked my butt off every hour
to make what I said come true
I’ve been doing this now for 16 years
I’m blessed to live this way
been able to conquer most my fears
and enjoy every single day
