Welcome texasgal! I think a lot of us have a very specific picture of what an alcoholic is, and when we don't fit into that extreme mold, we use it as a reason to deny our problem. One thing that's helping me so far is the mantra of "One day at a time." When I start looking ahead too far into the future and thinking about all the opportunities to drink that I won't be a part of, it starts to feel overwhelming. But not drinking today, I can handle that!
Best wishes, Alison