yukonm, It took me a while to admit to myself I had a problem to. In my mind I felt so dissapointed in myself, I didnt want to believe it, thinking how could I let this happen to me. BUT youve made the first step which is admitting it to yourself and thats awesome. I think its a good idea to ask the hubby not to drink around you. At least from now until you are stronger willed. If you do your part it will only get better from here :-) Best wishes to you.