My sex ideal is based upon examining my past patterns and behaviors and understanding the motives and causes for them, and then shaping it into something that is healthy, sane and allows for growth. My relationships with women in the past had been unhealthy and now I strive for something much higher and that is along God's plan. To go back to my old habits, attitudes and instincts when it comes to women is a slippery slope to old thinking, which can lead me to the drink. Comporting myself in a manner that lines up with God's will is all I can do.