Well after 3 days sober, which is how i drink anyway because i binge and always wait 3 days between drinking, i gave in and drank ALREADY! So in other words i did not do any better then usual. Why can't i just stop this. I was so stupid because i knew i had a doctor appointment the next day and i was supposed to meet my mom after the appoinment to shop for a dress. Well that did not happen because i had a massive headache and was worried i smelled like booze so i cancelled my doc app and then lied to my mom about why i wouldn't be able to meet her. That is so sad. If this isnt my rock bottom i don't know what is? I am starting to lie to people to cover my drunken tracks.
So now i am at 2 days again.