If you feel as though you need more support Dorris see your GP asap. You can discuss the best way forward for you.
I know it is hard to know how bad is bad, or if we really need more help...I had to reach rock bottom, I mean, really really helpless before I realised that I needed help and now many years later I have a sort of sliding scale from 1-10 that I can measure myself on.
Try not to think too much about things that stress you, do little things that you like, candlelit baths when the kids are in bed, walks etc and remember that you w i l l get better. Keep telling yourself that.
Val