Feelings
I hate having to feel feelings now that I am sober.
I turned 30 yesterday. My boyfriend didn't have anything planned, didn't get me anything. Asked me where I wanted to go for dinner the morning of my birthday. He had recently bought himself a car, a 3D TV and new shoes. My twin sister had the day off and spent the day at the spa courtesy of her husband. I told my boyfriend that I was jealous of her for what she got. People keep saying how big 30 is and it felt nothing different to me. My boyfriend's 30th was 6 months ago and I spent $1500 on a party bus, wine touring, and an evening at the Space Needle. He doesn't understnad why I am pissed. I would normally drink these feelings away and just push them down. But, since I am sober now, I am crying and pissed. I shouldn't have to depend on someone else to make me happy on my birthday but I expected a little more thought would be put into this, maybe flowers, or a card... Just needed to vent!