I was always judging and trying to help others even when my relationship with God wasn't right. Needless to say it didn't usually pan out too well. Caused a lot of envy and frustration to me. I was definitely trying to transmit something I didn't have. Relationship with God and HP was definitely not something I was truly seeking when I first came into the rooms, but I have learned that without a relationship with God, for me at least, not too much progress will be made in my life.