Karen
I am sorry to hear this. let me tell you this .Iam new at this also. I have been married for 23 years, I have used drugs for 25 years. about 10 years ago my life spon out of control. My none drug using wife tried useing meth with me and her brother. At the time we both liked it. For about 3 years we thought we could control it. I relize now 10 years later we both were wrong, it took over our lives.At the time I ran or asst. running a KFC. I loved my job.Idid it for about2 years, and started to steal from the company. One very stessful day I stool the whole deposit. I lied a tried to blame it on a nother person that quit. I thought I got away with it. I was wrong GOD new every thing. So I Quit a short time later and took a motorcycle trip across country. I was going to a freind for a job welding. Had a good time going. When I arrived 2 days later I found out he was not even willing to try and get me a job. AT that time I had about $1000 , I mest up again and bought lots of drugs and was a very bad person. AT the end of the week I was broke, and could not even get home, if I was even welcome. My buddy gave me 400 when he got payed, befor I left I used 200 on DRUGS. My trip home was HELL. Rained most of the way, and was very hot. So I did not ware my helment. got to St lewis and the law maid me put my helmit on got to Rolar got gas took a brake. went about my way was trying to get back on the highway and it happend. My mind was not with me and I hit a car head on... Thank GOD that my helment was on. I slid about 200 FT. My Left hand was tore apart and in a lot of pain. 3 DAYs later I call my wife . She took care of me for weeks till I could walk again. Our lives went down from there we lost a 3 bed room 2 cars and many more things . My drug habit got worse. Today I dont rember much more. The point is that we are still together. God put us together and I still PRAY to that she wont devorse me . That was in 95. I have not worked for 3 years Because of my drug habit. I have been in jail 2 times in that time of 3 years for 60 to 80 days. I on my last visit to jail turned my life over to JESUS. Also We to do hve two kids 20 and 16. I now Have Been clean for 93 days. And It is a one day at a time deal, I read the BIBLE EVERY MORNING AND PRAYMANY TIMES THROUGH THE DAY, I now have more to deal with my wife keep giving me reasons way she wont stop useing. I must keep my faith and THE MOST IMPORTAINT THING IS TO FIX MY SELF FIRST. I believe she will follow. This is hard for me because I hit rock bottom and I LOVE her so much I do not want to see her go there. I now go to A_A or N-A 3 or more times a week IT WORKS GO IF YOU NEED TO AND PRAY THAT HE WILL FOLLOW IN TIME. WORK THE 12 STEPS AND FIX YOUR SELF. in time I will know if I to must get a devorse also, i dont believe thats GODS will. Rember you are #1 and we both will know what to do in time. You are not alone as long as you have God to talk to he hears all..... I will PRAY FOR YOU hope you make the right choices. REMBER I AM ONLY HUMAN AND I MIGHT BE WRONG ALSO.ASK GOD FOR HELP AND IN TIME HE WILL ANSWER. gOT TO GO FOR NOW. OH I cant spell sorry hpoe you get the point.I dont type I peck. write back or E-mail to
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GOD BLESS
Michael
