Because of my codependency from a young age I don't even feel like I knew myself and who I was.
That was my recovery from my addiction.
I get to practice that recovery with others, and I struggled with it with my exAH.
I am starting to realize that what he vehemently faught against was not my illness but my recovery. When I actually set boundaries and stuck to them.
Sometimes I have to shift my focus before I realize how stuck in my own stuff I am. Also I have to realize sometimes my behavior is coming from a healthy place.