Originally Posted by
Feelstuck 
Oh I'm sorry your sister is going through that!! My "addiction" does not affect work. I do NOT take them from work, yes I do work while taking them, however after 4 years I certainly don't get a high from them. How do I conceed myself to either living a life of misery or a life of narcotics. Neither are good.... My tolerance goes up and I think oh just one more today to get
Through, then that happens a lot and here I am.... Hot and heavy into D T and miserable physically and emotionally. I just can't seem to find a balance of be strong. The first few days after I get the script filled I take upwards of 6 (every 4 hours I work nights and often stay up 24 being single mother) then once I realize oh no I'm almost out and it's only been 2 weeks I try to "ration" them saving for when I work, but I can't keep this up!!! There just has to be a better life. My kids miss me playing and I miss playing. But this pain consumes my life.
Hi Feelstuck, I answered your first post in the Substance Abuse forum but I just wanted to respond to the claim you made that taking opiates doesn't affect your work because you've been on them so long. That's just impossible, of course they affect you whether you're feeling high off of them or not, whether you're using them or coming off of them. I sure would mind if my doctor were operating on me while taking or coming off of opiates, or if the man driving the school bus were taking or coming off of opiates, or if the 747 pilot were taking or coming off of opiates. I believe getting real is vital to getting well, and the rigorous honesty I know to be vital in the process has to be not just with others but with myself too. ((((((((((Hugs for Feelstuck)))))))))))