[KcCrystal]

My Self esteem is at an all time low.. I used myself in an awfull degradeing manner.. ANd I don't know why.. I just don't understand my thinking anymore. What would it prove to do something like that.. I wanted love & friendship, but my god what is wrong with me by doing what I did.. I'm not like that, I never wanted to use my body in that manner.. What possesed me to do it the other day. God I'll never understand why my mind works the way it does.. I keep loseing friends over my bad judgement..