Welcome BingeGirl!
I was a weekend binger for a yr or two. But I thought I really like drinking so I began every other day. I built a tolerance for it so I had to increase the amounts to get the same effect.
I was proud of how as a small woman, i could out drink men 3x's my size (pitiful, in retrospect)
Then I would binge one day, recoup the entire next day. Rinse & repeat for another year.
Then I began drinking daily b/c it eased my hangover & it helped with the horrible shakes & anxiety I was developing. Then I was sneaking it, hiding how much I was drinking from everyone. Rinse & repeat for yrs.
Alcohol dependence develops progressively. It doesn't seem to be reversible for most people.
I hope you can figure it all out before it takes you over like it did me.