I used to be a binge drinker, I didn't drink on the days I was working, but oh how I made up for it on the days I wasn't. I've tried moderating, only drinking at week ends, not having a drink until 21.00, doesn't work, unlike 'normal drinkers' I don't have a stop button. Once I start there is no such thing as 'no thank you, I've had enough.' Abstinence is the only thing that works for me and my life is a whole lot better for it!
Give it a go, you're worth it!