Maybe the issue is you're kind of not being willing to help your self and take her suggestions? I'm not trying to sound harsh at all but there is absolutely nothing wrong with therapy. If you had a broken leg you would be sent to a medical doctor to get treatment. I know it doesn't seem the same way but seeing a therapist is really the same thing. If you have something going on mentally a therapist can help. It's nothing to be ashamed of. It's just apart of working on yourself, no one ever said it'd be easy. I'm like just getting into the program, just starting with a sponsor so I'm nowhere near where you're at but the thing I keep hearing is you kind of have to allow yourself to be helped and not immediately reject suggestions. What is your avertion to therapy? It could really be a tool in making you begin to feel better.A lot of people in AA are also in therapy, it can be a great asses not just for your sobriety but for getting to know yourself better