Sorry, I forgot to add:
I'm right there in the trench with you. I'm 11 days clean after 8 years of daily codeine use. I know how hard it is. I slept for 4 hours my first week clean, (the whole week total, not nightly). I understand the fear of living without the pills, I do. I know this isn't an easy thing to do, but there is really only one option if we want to live long healthy lives. The path of continued drug abuse has really only one true end, and it isn't in bed happily the age of 100 surrounded by family. It is short, usually alone, and painful.
This isn't the "holier than thou" noob RA rendering judgement on you. Far from it. This is coming from someone who is dealing with many of the tribulations you are, and really cares. Everyone here cares about you and wants to see you succeed. We want to read in 12 months that you are clean, healthy and happy. We wouldn't be here if we didn't.