| Problems with my brother
I just wanted to share with you some of the things that are going on in my life today. I have a brother who is three years older than me who is also an addict. Since I have been clean and in recovery myself, I have watched him come and go from the rooms and seen his disease progress. It has been a painful and difficult thing to deal with in my recovery, but it has gotten easier. It has become easier for me to let him go and do his own thing in recovery and work his own program. I have stopped cramming NA down his throat and badgering him about doing things, I guess thats the first and third steps in my life. I have to allow him to get enough pain in his life to become willing to do something different with his life. Anyway, his relapses have gotten progressively worse. He had six months clean not to long ago, and relapsed in April, then he used and has recently got kicked out of drug court probation. He has warrents out and will have to do some time for this stuff. He also has a -beautiful- 22 year old girlfriend who he has got in the middle of all this stuff. In the last 24 hours he has stolen her car, pawned some of her stuff, and then he busted out our mom's car window and stole her wallet last night!! I think I pretty much know what I need to do for myself and my family and am doing it to the best of my ability. I have already spoken to my sponsor and have tried to talk to his sponsor as well (a good friend of mine). I'm just trying to be there for my mom right now. I am going over to her house when I get off work here soon and call the police for her, give her some money, some lunch, some love and hugs, and clean up the mess he made and stuff. Damn this disease is ruthless. We are also pretty worried about him commiting suicide through this. I just wanted to let you guys know what I'm going through today and ask for your prayers and guidance through this insanity. I wish I could get her to go to some naranon. Thank god my I can be there for my mother today to help her out through things, 9th step stuff I guess. This kind of stuff sure does give me alot of gratitude for my recovery and remind me that I'm just one hit, pill, drink ect.. away from going there myself. Thanks for letting me share. Love & Respect, Mike
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