mainza, yes, yes, yes to what you said. I didn't realize that until I got to AA. The last times I've trying to quit I lasted 3-4 weeks and then got arrogant and thought I could drink like a normal person. Hahahahaa. I just stopped drinking but didnt seek any support. Last time I quit drinking, a couple years ago, someone asked me how it was going, and I said, oh fine, nothing's really changed. Well DUH! Thats why i ended up going back to the bottle. Nothing changed inside me. I was the same person, the same drunk just not drinking. I didn't do any work. Now it's different, and I've grown more in the past 12 days of sobriety than I have in the past five years. And I've only just scratched the surface.
Best wishes to you M, I know you're going to be successful this time. You sound very determined.