Thanks for the comments everyone!
I should have clarified when I meant "normal" amounts. My "normal" amount isn't small by any means but it has been a steady large amount since I was young. It may have increased when I was 18 or so because I guess I was getting tolerant to it. My point being is I can drink ALOT one night and little the next, and the blackout varies. Some nights I drink tons and can't even get drunk, no blackout. Other nights I won't even be trying to be super messed up and a blackout happens. There is never any warning. These blackouts don't seem like other peoples blackouts so I'm wondering if there's a reason..
hypochondriac - I have not blacked out *every* time I drink but when I do drink, in true alcoholic fashion, I try to get as drunk as I can.. and usually I am able to pull that off. And I totally agree.. I think I am looking for answers to drink "normally" or without negative consequences.. but I do know that the answer is pretty much clear.. :/
I really appreciate all the feedback & support guys!