Thank! Your post reminded me of one of my favorite quotes. A famous Friedrich Nietzsche quote goes, "And when you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also gazes into you."
This was a spiritual lesson I learned years ago while reading, of all people, Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh, who said, "Seek the Seeker".
As in, ".. not only is man seeking God (Tao), but God (Tao) is also seeking man", or something like that. Tao is like water and seeks the lowest way, or the path of least resistance. So if we remove all blockages from our Spirit (alcohol, drugs) and open ourselves to the Universe, the Universe shall come to us, (at least that is the way I am interpreting that).
"First there is a mountain, then there is no mountain, then there is" ~ Zen saying